Life of a Calorie Counter

This is gonna be a long one;


I haven't talked much about this whole weight loss crap-ola lately. I have officially lost 15 pounds sense, well about December time. It's been hard, very hard. I've pretty much isolated myself from anything fun, social, or anything that would set me up to fail. I haven't been going to the friends house, the bars (to this day I have not drank in 20 days.) It's not how I wanted to do it, but it will change after spring break when I'm not feeling so much pressure to shrink down having to wear spring clothes, bikini's, and party dresses all week. After that I wont be as concerned about it, and not in a hurry to shrink down, so I wont isolate myself, and I'll be more welcoming of the idea of getting menomonie white girl wasted sometimes ;-) Is it bad that I've thought about what I want to eat when I return to Minnesota? yeah probably, (hashtag)DietGirlProblems
Basically I have been counting my calories on a daily basis, and trying to count everything that I eat, even if its a Hershey's kiss I stole from my bosses dish on her desk. Ohh the life of a calorie counter, I must say, sucks. 
some people say well, why do you do it? It keeps me on track, more often than not people, (myself) eat things throughout the day that they don't really acknowledge or "count" and they add up, really fast. I challenge someone to count calories for a week, its eye opening. So it just keeps me in check, and disciplined I guess.

This is what my app is on my iphone; its through myfitnesspal.com --> its simply amazing. I've been using it on and off for a couple years now, thru my yo-yo diet phases. It has a "scan' feature, where you use the app, say "add food" and click the bar code button and you can scan any bar code of the food your eating and it automatically adds it to your data base right away, so it takes very little time, unless you are eating something that doesn't have a bar code.

Aside from the app, this is also, what my days look like

Lovely, right?   Being a calorie counter, you count, and measure everything. so that means eating out of measure cups, and going through so many dishes a week of tablespoons, 1/2 cups..etc. It's pretty annoying, but I guess just one of those things you gotta do if you want to change your habits. I feel like I'll be counting for quite a while, (probs not as much in Vegas though) but then hopefully I can ween myself off it it once I get in the habit of knowing my portions, knowing what most things will add up to, etc. 

But for now, I shall count. 

My main things I've been eating or just loving on, is grapefruit and granny smith apples. Okay, apples are good, and its taken a while to find the perfect apple that you like, and I like them a little crunch, and a littttle sweet, aka granny smith green apples. Next, Grapefruit!!! I slice them up in perfect little bites, but a little bit of sweet n' low/splenda on it and eat them up like candy. Okay, so I typically am a night eater, after a long day of work and class and gym or whatever, I sit on the couch and  veg like a starving  betch. That's kinda my thing, and my way of "winding down" "relaxing" and  "destressing" hence, why I blew up to the weight I was unhappy at in the first place. But I've been trying to steer myself away from that all together, but if I'm gonna do it I at least try and make it healthy food. SO, that leads me to grapefruit. I"m one of those people also, who are more 'satisfied' with what I eat when it takes longer to eat, I feel like I'm getting more. So a quick granola bar never cuts it. Grapefruit is so yummy and takes a bit to eat. Therefore, grapefruit has been my go to food, binge, snack, whatever. I once ate 3 in a sitting, pretty much for dinner. So good.

Lastly, there's having it on you mind... all.the.time. Today I just realized that I've turned into one of those really annoying people who talk about it a lot, or if someones eating something I'll sometimes share the calorie count of it, or today in class we came to the student center to do so student observing of stuff and a girl says " their muffins are so good' my response was "yah but they are like 400+calories" Okay, stop right there Shannon your being fucking annoying. Nobody cares as much as you right now, and they think your annoying so shut up! I even wondered off and asked if the grill place had a nutritional menu I could look at.   So that's what I do for fun now? skip bars, isolate myself, read nutritional menus' for fun and tell people what their eating #thissucks -- really sucks.  But I have been needing to make these changes for years now, and I feel like I"m finally getting to where I want to be. I just hope after Vegas I can stick with it, less aggressively and annoying, though. I guess it's just a part of my daily life now, its getting to be routine, and THATS when you know your reaching goals, when it becomes less of a "diet" and more of a lifestyle. They also say, don't go on a diet, change your lifestyle and habits, well, I'm trying, okay?  So, I apologize to my friends who have been facing my diet lifestyle change, and had to deal with my shit. Annoying, I know..trust me I know. 

Anyway, that's about enough for now, I could go on for more about a day in a life of a calorie counter, but as I've said before, that just gets annoying. But, I'll leave with a few things that I keep in my fridge on a weekly basis that are mmm near a daily part of my diet.

'Deli Fresh' Turkey slices-- 6 slices; 45; 50 calories. 

American Cheese Slices 2%-- 1 Slice, 45 calories

Sara Lee 100% whole grain Bread-- 2 slices; 90 Calories

Special Kay Strawberry Cereal- 1 cup; 110 calories 

Pure Almond Milk-- 1 cup; 35 calories 

Tyson Skinless Boneless chicken breast -- 3oz, 100/110 calories

Ruby Red Grapefruits

Granny Smith Apples

Great Value Turkey Sausage Patties-- 1 patty; 90 calories 

Village Hearth Light English Muffins -- 1 muffin ; 90 calories 

Emerald Cocoa Roast Almonds -- 100 calories per pack 

Orville Redenbacher Popcorn, 94% Fat Free Butter; 1 bag 100 calories