This semester has been flying past me! Between work, school, meeting with groups, working out, sleeping, doing homework etc I've been running like 14 hour days back to back and getting little sleep. Haven't been seeing my friends much because I've been so busy and every day I'm just too exhausted. I've been thinking about quitting my job at the office on campus. I would just hate to do that, because I've always been one to need to work or I just feel bad or worthless, but I do think it would be good for me to have some extra time during the days/week. It would deff bring my mental health back to parr as I've been a little bat shit crazy lately with everything going on. I don't know, it's something I would have to see if I can work out. I need more time to focus on school and my health, that's what important to me right now, and if I cant go out every weekend cause I'm broke, then so be it, besides, if I'm striving to focus on my health anyway, going out every weekend isn't really the recipe for success.
I mean, I've lost about 13ish lb's so far. After Vegas I want to focus on more being healthy then stressing about numbers though, the numbers game was more about shrinking before Vegas, after that, the pressure will decrease greatly. (the pressure I put on myself) It's been annoying though because I've been so distant from everything, I haven't drank in 15 days, I haven't gone over to the girls house or anything last couple weeks, I guess I've been pretty focused on losing this stupid pounds and haven't wanted to get wrapped up into anything that would compromise that. We all know when it comes to comfort food & vodka I lake control haha.
School has been crazy, technically I have 18 credits, some online, some weekend only, some from a previous semester I'm trying to complete. Some hard classes, some tedious, that's usually how it goes anyway, but for some reason I just seem to be way in over my head either way. I just want to graduate. When I say that out loud to someone who has graduated they are quick to correct me, and say enjoy it while it lasts, you'll miss it, real world sucks, etc. But that doesn't make me want to graduate any less. I'd like to be done, working, and starting a life beyond college and settle down. By settle down I don't mean go find a hub, have kids la dah dah, just being able to settle down in where I live, a job I'll stay at for a few years, consistency, etc.
This song has been on repeat lately, as it sums up that part of the ol' life-ski.
Just a little bit of Sunday morning ramblings..
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